When life quietens and I have some space again
I return to dreaming.
I guess I start to wonder where its all headed.
And most of all I revel in the fact that I can dream. What a stunning freedom it is.
I guess I don't really like this idea of dreaming very much - its quite, well, twee and cute and childish. It often seemingly lacks in any real depth.
But when I really look at what is is to dream I begin to read a different story, one of hope, of life, of potential: of God.
I begin to understand that dreaming isn't really the choice, the follow through is. Dreaming is in our nature, but we don't all choose to listen.
I guess this week I've been hit smack bang in the face by dreams being quenched.
I have felt it in me when my dreams have been squashed down - reshaped. Sometimes by lies and sometimes by God.
And there's the tension. Its a balance to tread and its easy to go too far in either direction. I've seen so many blame satan for their dreams falling through when maybe all they needed is to ask God for the strength to perservere and then to do just that.
But then some refuse to recognise when its not God anymore, when its time to just get out. When they are being put inside a box and limited, without space to breathe.
Both are dangerous, and scary.
I guess as I find the permission to dream again, as I begin to dare myself into a stepping out. As I let my eyes dawdle away from the Now and into the beyond the next thing I glimpse at God's love.
If dreaming does anything it gifts to me God. It reminds me how big He is. For I have seen my dreams explode into the beyond imaginable and I believe for that to be a steadfast reality.
I relish in this space that reminds me of how I can fly. For sure, dreams are accomplished in the getting up and the DOing but they are born in these Holy moments where heaven and earth seem to blend and we dance in the realm of impossibilities.
May we be people who dance in the freedom of dreaming - recognise the responsibility of it and then tread the hard line of stepping out.
May we be people who dream of God's Kingdom come.
And may we stand - even when we think all is lost - may we stand and declare that He is God and He is good. Always.